What Did I Do?

What did I do?
On Tuesday, I turned my head for a moment and Ginny got one piece of another kid's snack into her mouth. She didn't even get to bite it or chew it or swallow it before I yanked it out, rinsed out her mouth and wiped off her tongue... and then held my breath for the next few hours.

What did I do?
On Wednesday I gave Ginny vanilla yogurt. The only ingredient different from the plain yogurt she's been eating, without issue, is vanilla.

What did I do?
On Wednesday I baked and fed to Ginny whole wheat flour, banana, blueberry muffins, to which I also added vanilla.

What did I do?
On Thursday, without any forethought or intentions of starting an official 'trial' I fed Genevieve freeze dried pineapple. I thought, "What the heck? She's been brilliant! I doubt she's really going to react to any fruits at this point in time."

What did Ginny do?
Last night she woke up at 1 a.m., screaming. I nursed her. We held her and changed her diaper and soothed her and she continued to scream until just after 3 a.m. It's not unusual for Ginny to still wake up once a night to nurse, it's just unusual for her to be wide awake, standing up in her crib, screaming and all but inconsolable for 2 hours.

What won't I do?
I won't give her pineapple again, for a very long time. I will make this week an official trial of vanilla. I will return to my paranoid, eagle eye way of living, even if people do think I'm a little crazy, so I can avoid pain for Genevieve and anxiety for myself. Wheat is safe. Fifteen other foods are too. It's just the thousands of other foods out there that might be dangerous that are keeping me up at night.